STEP you / is this LOVE?

Chicken Little...

2005-12-06T07:44:00.000-08:00

I received a call from audrey mei this afternoon.. She ask me out to orchard... With Charlene... I look at the clock, it was 3:00 pm... I have another appointment with Xin Yi at Lido Complex at 6:00 pm... So I get change and meet audrey...

Audrey and Charlene waited for meet at the MRT station. When I reach, we went to Heerens... After that, we went to Coffee Club and have Hi-Tea... I told them I have a appointment at 6 pm... But they don't let me off... They snatch my phone and don't wanna give back to me... They want me to accompany them... But I've already promise Xin Yi... Haiz... At the last minute, they finally let me go... Hahas... I rush to Lido Complex and meet up with Xin Yi and her friends... Well, we are watching Chicken Little together... It was 6:30 pm, but the movie start at 8 pm... So we went down and eat our dinner... We chat while we having our dinner... After eating, we went to Isetan and walk around. 7:55 pm, we went up to the cinema and getting ready to go in. Well, we grab some snacks before go in... Xin Yi bought Kacang Putih... Weird huh? Eat Kacang Putih while watching movie? Hahas... While watching the movie, Xin Yi was laughing out loudly... Like nobody business... Hahas... No la... Just kidding... It is a funny movie... Very cute and interesting... Hahas...

After movie, we went back home by MRT... We chat and laugh all the way home... cos we were talking about the things that happened during Primary School... Looking back on the things we've done, I think I'm very childish... Hahas... We alight at Boon Lay, Xin Yi is going back to her cousins house... Near Pioneer Mall... She says she's walking there... Hmmm... I think, isn't it a bit too dangerous for her to walk there alone? It was late... I mean like, she was a very sweet and beautiful girl... I wonder she is safe if she walk alone in the dark and quiet street... Is she?

11:58 PM

Oh ya oh ya.....

2005-12-04T06:57:00.000-08:00

Yesterday night, I received a call from Xin Yi, my dear primary school friend... Hahas... She asked me out... Meet at Jurong Point at 12 PM today... The first thought that strikes me, there will be a lot of primary school friends tmr... Wahaha... So I was out with a happy and relax mood to meet "them"... But when I reach there, only Xin Yi... Hahas...

When I saw her, I almost cannot regonise her! For whatever, we haven't see each other for about a year..? What should I say... She is gorgeous? Definitely... Hahas...

She brought me to a place... " Don't want to mention here " On the way there, we have a very nice chat... Talking about the things that can happen during our primary school period... Hahas... While chatting, I realized that I can actually be that silly enough... Silly and stupid things...

Today, I realized that Xin Yi can sing and dance very well... Hahas... After that, she went to her class chalet at Downtown East... She go alone... " Don't expect me to see her there bahz... " And I went to Fairway Club... Hahas..

11:11 PM

If there is no way we can be together...

2005-11-27T08:31:00.000-08:00

Haiz... I'm changing my phone soon... So just now, I read through all my SMS in my phone's archive... Among the 60 saved messages, 42 messages were sent by her... Happened to see a message, which is her e-mail address... Her e-mail address is, " t.ii.n.gg@nd.WO "... Well, It seems to be a normal e-mail address, and I think that it's nothing wrong at first... But, I suddenly break the words into sth I never thought of... I mean, the e-mail address isn't that simple... And I think only she knows about it... Maybe me too... I'm not stupid, I mean, simple things, I can think till very complicated... And complicated matters and it seems to be simple to my senses... I'm not stupid... I'm not an idiot... I know what she thinks... That address, that SMS and every single things she mentioned... They seems to be simple, but in my eyes, that's what I can't get enough of...

1:20 AM

She's leaving later...

2005-11-22T09:21:00.000-08:00

She is leaving later... I guess she is at the airport now... She is going to Shandong for the stupid immersion programe...

On late September, principal of my school announce to the whole school for the immersion programe to Shandong... There are 20 vacancy... When I heard the annoucement, I was like, " WHAT??? CHINA AGAIN??? I WILL NEVER GO!!! "... It was because I went to china alot of times already... My impression of china was kinda bored..? Unhygenic..? Nothing interesting..? And going with the school somemore... It will be a " freedom-less " trip...

Well, the total cost of the trip is $1500 but the school subsidised $500... So the cost is only $1000... It's so cheap... $1000 to go china..? Wow... Great... But I've go china for many many times already... So, I don't want to go this time although it was extremely cheap... Wahaha...

One day, when the principal met those students going for the trip, I saw her there too... What??? She's going too??? Damn... If i know earlier, I will go too... Haiz... No chance already... Entry closed... So I'm now typing my blog... If not, I'm now in the airport and having a great time...

I hope she can enjoy herself there... All the best... Good luck... I've ask someone to look after her over there... Hahas... Hope that person will remember my words...

I warn the Airline now... If anything happen to the plane or anything happen to her, I'll make sure the Airline go bankrupt.. I swear i will and i can do that...

3:30 AM

A sleep may last forever... I'm worried...

2005-11-20T12:08:00.000-08:00

Friends? What are friends? I hate to be friends with her... I hate it!

Well, I guess I'll feel better when I'm dead than I'm alive... I know I should let go than holding on to it forever... But my love for her will live forever... As long as the world is awake, I'll be loving her till eternity... I swear...

A sleep may last forever... I'm worried... I don't wish to sleep at night... If I don't sleep, I will never dream... But I'll only see her in my dream... She is illusional...

Misunderstand can be unstanding too... I know it's my fault to blame her... I know it... But I hope she will spare a thought for me... I angry not because she didn't accept the jacket... I angry not because she didn't eat the chocolate... I'm angry because she doesn't know how to appreciated... And that's what I can't stand...

How I wish I could fly high... After I fly high, how I wish I could't fly and drop straight to the ground and die...

Well, I promise... I promise her I'll not die without her permission...

Today is the 37th day I know her... Day after day, night after night... This 37 days seems to be a dream... The best moment I had during this period was during my dreams... I dream of her almost every night... But after I woke up, it's back to realistic... How I wish I could dream forever because I believe love is endless and eternity... I believe, believe in love... Everything seems to be fine... But not actually...

4:26 A.M

The purpose of the reason isn't what it should be...

2005-11-08T03:52:00.000-08:00

I've been looking forward for the afternoon to arrive... Yes... Today is the first section of the dragon dance training... But I'm not looking forward for this... I'm looking forward to see her... Haiz.. I really miss her very much...

Upon arriving at the assemble area, the first thing i did wasn't looking for my class... I look around to see if she was here... But she is nowhere of my sight... Haiz... After I sat down, I look to her class's direction... And she was there!!! She look more skinny now than during school days... Haiz...

As soon as the training start, again, I look around to see where she is... But I'll just see... Because I don't have the courage to talk to her... I know she is still angry with me... During the whole section, almost every of my attention was on her... I'll grab every single opportunity to see her... I guess she saw me too...

After the whole section, I went home by bus, alone... She kept running through my mind... After I alight, a thought strikes me... I swear I'll never fall in love or marry anyone else except her... I'm willing to remain single forever for her... I swear and I'll do it.

I know that she isn't worth me waiting and longing for... But I just want her to know, I gaze at her and only her in the crowd... She keep dragging me down with a irresistable force... And that's because I'm deeply in love with her... It will soon become obsession... I guess...

8:13 PM

New hair style..?

2005-11-07T04:12:00.000-08:00

By right, I should be going out for a hair cut at 3:00 PM... But just right before I went out, I on my com... And happen to see Charlene online... So I accompany her to chat as she is now in malaysia... Can tell that she was very boring there in our conversation.. Hahas... So, we chat until about 5:30, then she offline... So i go out too... After my hair cut, I went to mcdonalds to buy Sundae... And guess who serve me... lol... Is Mei Xuan... Hahas... When she took my order, she laugh and laugh and laugh... Hahas... Am I that funny..? Hahas... Teenagers are working nowadays... Is it for fun..? Or is it for money..? But one thing i'm sure in is, working in Fast Food restaurant is a popular job for Secondary School students...

8:18 PM

A day with Mitchell and Pang Yong

2005-11-03T21:23:00.000-08:00

Went out with Mitchell and Pang Yong today... First, we went to queenways... Shop the whole shopping centre... Then we felt hungry... So we took mrt to Plaza Singapura and eat Long John Silver... After that, we went to Harbour Front and look for Audrey... lol... She was like... Cute? Hahas... Indeed... She looked cute with her Mcdonalds dressing... While me and Pang Yong queueing up to order food, we saw Audrey and a guy talking to each other... The guy is a worker of mcdonalds too... Around 20 years old... Both me and Pang Yong thought that the guy is teaching and guiding Audrey... But after we heard their conversation, Audrey is actually teaching him what to do! Hahas... Isn't it funny?

Haiz... I finally know the answer today... Not that she don't want to eat the chocolate i gave her... Is that if she eat it, she will get rashes... Which means I scolded her for nth? Haiz... I've mistaken her... I hope I have the chance to say sorry to her... Haiz... Should I?

9:23 PM

Angry but missing...

2005-11-02T08:26:00.000-08:00

Haiz... I didn't send her a single sms today... I still very angry with her... Haiz... Angry is another thing... But I still like her very much... Should I just forget about it? Or should I keep on going like this? I really don't know what to do... I think, in her mind, there's no such thing as appreciation...

Went to Grace's ( my bro's gf ) family BBQ just now... lol... So fun... Hahas...

I got a very very good Jie... Everytime I'm down, she will always cheer me up... Really wanna thank her... Hahas... Jie ar... Jie di forever! Hahas... Thanks for helping me so much... I really appreciate what you've done for me... All the best to you...

2:31 AM

No senses of appreciation

2005-10-31T07:59:00.000-08:00

Haiz... I've done so much for her... But she don't appreciate it at all... She even scold me... She thought that only she will get angry... She thought that other people are emotionless... I'm human and I have feelings... She was wrong but she scold me... Oh man... Stop it... I have my pride too... Although I like her, but I really can't stand her attitude... On Saturday, she just scold me for nth... I found it damn ridiculous... What she don't like about me just tell me... Please, I'm sick now... I still have a lot of matters need to settle... Please... Don't make things difficult for me anymore... I'll go crazy... My dearest friends around me were leaving, Charlene had gone to malaysia... Pang Yong too... And at 14th Nov, my jie will also go back to malaysia for a month... Audrey need to work... Now my life only left you... And now you treat me like an idiot... I'll go insane soon... Really...

12:12 AM

My friend till the end?

2005-10-29T22:31:00.000-07:00

My friend till the end?

Friends, but will it be end?
Twisting and turning throught the bends
Trying to express,
Our friendship is nothing less than everything I wanted it to be.

Maybe you're the only one to see
Just how much you mean to me.
Don't believe in God, yet I pray that this can stay.
No matter what we say, just how it is today!

-- Adapted from a book. It express my thoughts for her the day before.

1:33 PM

Let's us remain like this forever

2005-10-26T22:57:00.000-07:00

Today should be a unhappy day for me... I really don't know why I'll tell her yesterday... But luckily, today turned out to be a very nice day... Morning, received a msg from Charlene... I told her I didn't go to school... I told her I'm sick... She also ask me to rest well... Next, my jie call me... Ask me if i'm ok or not... Really thank you all you all for your concern... Around 3:00 PM, I went to Arena CC for golf... Charisse returned me back the CD... My shot today wasn't very good... Maybe due to my mental.. After I went home, I received a msg from Chilli Padi... She asked me how am I le... I told her I'm okay... I'm so impress... She actually concern about me! We still have chat abit... Despite the matter yesterday... Just now, I received her msg again... She written " Gd nite... "... I'm felt so happy... She may not be mine... But we are still good freinds... Thats what I want... We still can concern about each other... And thats enough for me le... Really... Really hope that you can wish me " Good Night " everynight... But will she? Haiz.. Really hope that...

10:57 PM

I've done something out of my mind

2005-10-26T19:17:00.000-07:00

What have I done?? I actually confess to her yesterday... I don't know why I'm so out of mind... But my sense just tell me that I cannot hide my feelings to her for another moment... Though I know what will be the outcome, I still tell her... By right, I feel better after telling her... And now she knows how I feel.. And she say we will still remain as good friends... I'm happy enough already... She actually makes me understand that friendships is more important than relationships... So, let us be the very very best friends... Didn't go to school today because I'm not feeling well... Anyway even I go to school also nth to do... Might as well stay at home.. From what I know, she didnt go to school today also...

10:24 AM

What had happen?

2005-10-25T18:35:00.000-07:00

Haiz... What the hell happened today??? Went to Esplanade this morning and so many things happen... When I'm back in school at 12 pm, Audrey told me that sth happen and wants me to settle... So I went to her class, she told me that Chiaw Hui find trouble for her, Zi Hui and Wan Ting... And it's because of me.. Thats what Audrey told me... She say Chiaw Hui stare at them at the morning, and scold them... She scold them because I treat them watch movie and lunch and she don't want them to spend my money anymore... I find it ridiculous... Thats my money and it's my freedom to spent on whatever thing I like... Why did she scold them? I don't really know her, neither I talk to her in school before... Why did she do that??? If she want anything from me, just tell me! Why did she scold me friends? It's my freedom to do anything I want... She doesn't have the rights to control me... Neither she can scold my friends... I still can't figure out why she do that... Now Wan Ting thought I tell Chiaw Hui what we did on Friday... And she's now angry with me... Haiz... Chiaw Hui... What do you want? Why you do those thing to my friends? I don't know you, you know? Why you do that to me? What the hell you are doing???

6:35 PM

I was being fool by Audrey

2005-10-22T08:46:00.000-07:00

I'm lost... I don't know what should I do now... Audrey asked me to call her just now... She keep asking me if I like Chilli Padi or not... But how am I gonna say? So I didn't answer her question... After a while, Chilli Padi called... And I'm on the line too... But Chilli Padi doesn't know I listening... Audrey asked me to keep quiet, she wants me to listen to their conversation... Suddenly, Audrey told her that I like her and she ask her if she likes me or not... I was shocked... How come she's so direct??? Wah lao... After a while, Audrey ask me to speak sth... And I did... Chilli Padi was shocked... I think she was wondering if I've heard what she have said earlier on... And true enough, I heard everything...

I know that Pang Yong and Audrey want to match me and Chilli Padi... I admit... I had a good impression on her... But I'm still taking her as a good friend... But after that phone call, how am I gonna face her again? I am screwed...

12.01 AM

Happiest day ever

2005-10-21T03:20:00.000-07:00

Went out with Chilli Padi, Zi Hui, Audrey and Pang Yong just now...

* for ur info, Chilli Padi is Wan Ting from 2N2... it's becoming my habit to call her that... =]*

During assembly, I sat in front of Chilli Padi... She ask me to eat lunch as she promised me earlier on... I agreed and I ask Pang Yong to go too... We took taxi to Jurong Point... Chilli Padi don't wanna eat straight away... So me and Pang Yong accompany them to shop... But all the things they shop is about female... I'm so out of place! Finally, when we walk pass the cinema, Chilli Padi suggested to watch movie... Everyone agreed expect Audrey as she gotta work later on... So we bought 4 tickets for the movie " The Skeleton Key"... After that, we went down to Fiesta and eat... After we went in, Zi Hui don't want to eat...So she went off and eat something else alone...

Pang Yong and I order main course while Chilli Padi and Audrey ate sth light... While eating, we chat about everything that's under the sun... Although she was the one who treat, but I pay for everything instead...

After our meal, when went to meet Zi Hui and Audrey left... Before we went into the Cinema, we draw our tickets... Chilli Padi and I purposely let Zi Hui and Pang Yong to sit together... But when they sit together, Chilli Padi told me that Pang Yong look so lonely... So I ask him to sit beside me... So the final sitting position is ( from my left to right ) Pang Yong, Me, Chilli Padi and Zi Hui... While watching, Chilli Padi and Zi Hui talk about the movie... And I think they were lame... Hahas... After watching, Pang Yong left... Now only three people left... Again, I'm out of place... They went to see clothing... Then they went into ESPRIT and Chilli Padi promised me that inside will have man's outfit... But, there's none... Hahas...

Next, we went into the Pet's station... Oh man... The dogs there were cute! Same as the hamster! Hahas... We went to an optical shop after that... Chilli Padi wanna see contact lens... But guess what? She drop the contact lens on the floor... And it breaks... Lol... Luckily they didnt ask her to compensate...

After they apologised, they went to Breadtalk to buy bread... Then they accompany me to take Bus 240 home... So weird... First time girls see me home... =P

I sms Chilli Padi for many days le... And she nv reply... I asked her what happen jus now... Guess wat she answer me? She say during monday, when she sms me, she take shower at the same time... And her phone now is "flooded" with water... Hahas... Is it my fault?

Now searching for Winter Outfit to lend to Chilli Padi for her Shandong trip on November... Snowy there? Cold? Found it... A tiny green Outfit... If I'm not wrong, it can withstand -40 degree celsius... Passing it to her on Tuesday... Hope it can fit her... ( She isn't that fat anyway... =P )

7:43 PM

So near yet so far

2005-10-19T16:37:00.000-07:00

Haiz... Anybody can tell me what to do? She's driving me crazy... So near yet so far... Thats what resemble my feelings now... A girl, a simple girl, a girl who is as normal as any girl, but she kept running through my mind. Her smile is as warm as the sun, her eyes is sparkling like stars, her voice is like wind breezing through my ears. Everything about her is just so perfect to me. When I'm getting nearer to her each day, my heart is tearing an inch apart. We will never be together unless miracle happens. But I'll always wait for the day to arrive. I will kept her in my heart, cherishing my every moment with her. Also hope that she isn't an illusion to me. Realistic... Remember?

4:37 PM

After a meaning 3 day camp

2005-10-16T23:35:00.000-07:00

Return from camp at 1:00 pm this afternoon. On the first day, I was assign to group with Yew Chong and Wan Ting. ( And other 7 people but this two people are more familliar to me. ) I was also asked to be the leader of the group on the first day. Second day, Wan Ting was the leader. I think she lead better than me... Expectable. We exchanged our phone number during activity and we sms each other at night. But, my hp was low batt. So I need to borrow hp from Yew Chong for the whole night. Sounds funny. Hahas..

Today afternoon, I have a nice chat with her. We chat about the things we do for the past few days. We gave each other a nickname. She call me Mr Wasabi, I call her Ms Chilli Padi. We two call Yew Chong Mr Mash Mallow. These names are adapt from the games we played. We also made a deal, who ever gets the lower average marks for exams will have to treat another Sakae Sushi Lunch. I think I'll be the one who treat her. Hahas..

11:35 PM

Before the leadership camp

2005-10-13T20:18:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow going to Leadership Camp at Labrador Park for 3 days... Until sunday... So sian.. Cannot use com... And many many things! But I think I'll have fun there... =P

8:18 PM

Sad and suprise!

2005-10-04T15:30:00.000-07:00

Cancelled the chalet thingy today, because everyone have problems with it. Well, nvm... Got back the marks of Geography and I'm suprised that I've actually pass! Woooohoooo! And today, received a notification form from form teacher, which state that I'm selected for the leadership camp. It's a wonderful thing that I've been selected to go.

3:30 PM

First paper, Mother Tongue

2005-10-03T20:25:00.000-07:00

Got the first paper of the exams today, Mother Tongue. Well, the questions are quite difficult. But I have confidence to score high marks. Yesterday, I sms and reminded almost the whole class to bring dictionary. But, I'm the one who didn't bring it. Funny? Ahahahahahaha! Just now, just right after school, mdm rosita came and told me that she is nominating me for the Good Efforts award... Hahas... But don't know she mean it or not... Caculated th budget for the chalet. Lower than what I expect. Hahas

8:25 PM

Trip to Orchard with Pang Yong

2005-10-01T21:41:00.000-07:00

Went out with Pang Yong today. First, we went to IKEA, walk and walk and walk. After that, we took bus to Orchard. Went to CineLeisure to eat pasta. Ate pasta cook with clams and white wine. Then, went to Kinokuniya, then Golf house. After that, we took MRT to City Hall, to Raffles City. We went to Coffee Club for a cup of Tiramisu Latte and a piece of Carrot Cake. Then, went to Suntec City to walk around. I saw Royce Chocolate and I bought two bar. One for my family and one for a friend. After that, we went to Carrefour. Actually decided to buy sth, but the queue too long, so forget it. After we left Suntec City, we went to Funan, the IT mall. Walk the entire mall, then we went home via MRT after that.

9:41 PM

Old feelings seems to be new

2005-09-29T20:20:00.000-07:00

How come? I thought I could do it. But why? Once I saw her picture, that feeling came back again. I wonder how she do these few days... Fine? I really hope so. She was the one who let me see the brightness in the dark in the past. She was the goal I'll always achieve for. Once in a while, she makes me feel so great. But sometimes, I've try hard to forget her. Memories are forgetable but can never be erase.

8:20 PM

Preparing for chinese exams

2005-09-27T20:28:00.000-07:00

Just on the computer, looking for the Chinese Letter Writing Format. Monday exam starts and I think I'm ready for it. Well, during recess, Chun Hui, with a plate of rice, walk past me while I sitting on the bench, eating. But all of a sudden, something hot drips onto my shirt. I turned and saw his rice spill onto my shirt. Thanks to him, my clean shirt now become dirty. Yucks... But never mind, he didn't did it on purpose. Oh ya, tmr got maths test. Thx to Ryan for reminding me... =P

8:28 PM

New layout for my blog

2005-09-26T19:54:00.000-07:00

Got back a chinese compo test today, got 66. But I think it's the highest in the class. Discuss with Zhi Kai about our class trip-to-be chalet during holidays. But we've a headache. The amount of money we need to spend is more than our budget. Went back home and check the price of chalet all over Singapore, found out that the rate is below our budget. How lucky. Well, change my blog's layout again. I think looks better than the previous layout. What do u think? Comment on the tag board.

7:54 PM

Coincidence? Fate?

2005-09-21T21:48:00.000-07:00

Was that just coincidence? Or was it my fate? In the past years, how I wish I could see her everyday. But day after day, I began to despair, because I know I should always face the fact. I know I'll never see her again. Perhaps, I didn't even have the courage to face ehr. One day, which was September 18, I was so pathetic until I post my feelings and memories for her on the blog. And guess what? I took MRT today and I saw her! She was just beside me, about 2 metres away. The moment I saw her, my heartbeat increases. I felt excited and nervous at the same time. It's the first time I had this feeling. My mind told me that I've to stay cool and calm. In order to keep myself occupied, I took out my phone and entered numbers to call. But my hands was shivering and I don't even know am I doing at that moment. At last, I alighted the train. But she was just in front of me. After I walk out of the station, I purposely made detour to Jurong Point to avoid her. But when I'm on the escalator, she was behind me and I know she saw me too. As we reached the 3rd floor, we walked separately and from the time onwards, I never bump to her again. But I think it's more than enough to recap my memories.

9.48 PM

"Promises" day

2005-09-20T22:07:00.000-07:00

Well today, I shall called it a " Promise Day ", because I`ve made alot of of promises... Morning, promised Wan Ting to eat Long John Silver in the afternoon... But in the end didn't go... After school, Pang Yong asked me to accompany him to Jurong Point to buy sth... But didn't go too... But I promised him to go with him tmr... At night, Danny called and ask me what's the price of a memory card reader... But I'm not very sure. So I promise him to check it out tmr.

Well, many ppl say Wan Ting and I stead, but I'm here to clarify this. She has already got a boyfriend. Me and her are just good friends, and she don't want to let too many people know, especially teachers. So everytime she will walk with me instead of her boyfriend. So please don't think otherwise.

10.07 PM

Take care, my big sister

2005-09-19T22:19:00.000-07:00

Hope that she had read the previous blog... But I don't think she have done so... Haiz... Never mind... That's the past... We should always look to the future... You'll always remain in my heart... As a friend who gave me a sweet memory. Well, all the best in everything you do and I hope you can find ur Mr Right soon... I'll always remember what you've taught me. And I'll always treat you as my "big sister"... Take care.

Things which kept in my heart for 5 years

2005-09-18T03:19:00.000-07:00

Sign... Couldn't sleep... Reviving the past on the bed. And now I decided to type it out. Well, this happened about 5 years ago. I know her during i'm Pri 3. We were from the same class, we do the prefect duty with each other, we used to play, talk and laugh together everyday. Still can remember, we played captain`s ball on wednesday every week before school. We used to quarrel with each other. And she likes to call me *sth sth*... But I don't feel any angriness. She likes to kick my leg whenever she saw me. But that feeling for me is great. Once, the Mother Tongue teacher assign me and her to borrow a recorder from other class. We ran around the school together. And that's my happiest moment. Though the time was short, but it was sweet at the same time. I just feel so great.

But things wasn't the same after Pri 3. We went to different classes. At the first few months, we still smile and greet each other when we run into one another. But as time past, she started to forget everything. She ignored me, just like we were strangers. I walked towards her but she just walk away. I just don't understand why. Well, I think I fell deeper annd deeper. Many of my friends told me that she turned arrogant, told me that she looked down on people who is lousier than her. But I just don't believe it. I believed in myself. She wasn't the type of girl like what they've said. I'm so confused. Should I believe them? I told myself NOT to.

Well, during Pri 5, on the sports day, we talked to each other again. I even took the balloon and chase after her. Like what we've done during Pri 3. We played with each other again. I'm so happy. But, everything gone back to the same after that day. Again, we were strangers. I usually grab every chance to look at her. Especially after recess, when we assemble in the hall. I kept looking at her until she left the hall.

There was a time, during the national celebration, she performed on the stage. She caught my eyes on her, without a blink. And I almost cry out when I saw she dance, wiht the background songs singing, " Deep in my heart, I just know. Right from the start, we will grow. " This sentence describes my feeling lots. During Pri 6, she was assign to lead the pledge for the school. Everytime, I kept very quiet, just to listen to her voice.

All my friends said I'm silly, I shouldn't fall for her. They said that she doesn't worth me to fall for. She was arrogant. She was proud. But to me, she is the most wonderful girl I ever seen.

The most regreted thing in my life was, I didn't say Goodbye to her during Pri 6, when we were going to the secondary school. I should, I should tell her how I feel! But, I dont have the chance anymore.

But one day, I received an e-mail. Don't rmb who sent it, but I saw her name in the contact list. I quickly send an e-mail to her and ask her is she that "someone"? And she said she is. Hahas... We talk to each other again! I'm so happy, and I'm too excited to slp for that night. We started to chat, chat about anything under the world. I wanted to get her mobilephone number, but i've no courage to. So one day, I planned, planned to trick her to give me her number. During our conversation on MSN, I purposely added a ex-schoolmate into the conversation. And I asked, "Anyone here have any christmas msg to share?" The ex-schoolmate reply "no". But she replied "Give me ur num so I can send it to u.". Ya rite, thats what I want. She really send me those msg and I got her number.

But it wasn't a good thing. She did a thing which makes me upset and furious. I don't want to mention it, she knows herself.

Well now, although the feelings for her isn't present anymore, but she gives me the sweetest memories.

( If you happened to read this post, I mean the female character in this post, I just want to tell you, I'll look to the future. But, give me a chance to tell u sth which I wanted to tell u in the past, " I Love You ". And for what ever reasons, please, don't get offended.)

3.19 PM

Happy day =P

2005-09-15T14:53:00.000-07:00

Today is a wonderful day overall, everything goes smoothly, my test, my results. Got a english test, well, the test is quite easy for me. And today, form teacher pin up the ranking of our class for common test 2. Quite happy with me result. After school, walk to cheers with Wan Ting. We chat along the way. She bought a packet of chocolate after choosing for 15 mins. We went home separately after that.

2.53 PM

Xiu Wei, u are one year older le...

2005-09-12T20:46:00.000-07:00

Today is the school re-opening day after the holidays. Well, went to school today and realised that today is 12th of Sept! Which means that Xiu Wei's birthday was yesterday! Oops... Forgotten about her present. But, manage to give her " birthday bash ". Hahas... ( Xiu Wei, congrats! 1 year older le... Be more mature okay? ) Hahas... During recess, Zhi Kai, Ze yi, Hong Yong and me went to Mdm Kairiani to collect our money... But failed to do so. Hahas... Predictable. Went home straight after school and had a nap. Now starting to do my DNT workbook.

8.46 PM

How did I get you?

2005-09-09T17:04:00.000-07:00

Alone at home whole day today, nothing to do, so I decided to give my blog a new look. Which is now the new design. It takes me more than 4 hours to finish. Still working on it, making it a better look. Current songs is " Where Did I Go Right", If you are reading my blog now, give me some ideas to improve this blog. And if possible, tell me what songs u would like to listen. Give your comments using the tag-board located at the right. Thanks.

5.04 PM

Singapore Open 2005

2005-09-08T22:12:00.000-07:00

Went to Singapore Open at Sentosa this morning. Watch Adam Scott, the World 7th and Madan Mammat, local 1st, playing. Walking 18 holes with them. Adam finished with 1 under, and Madan finished with 2 over. Madan got a stroke of penalty by stepping his ball in the rough at the 12th. Choo Tze Huang, local first amatuer, finished with 5 over, 76, while Goh Kun Yang finished with 4 over. While we are waiting for the shuttle bus back to main island, we heard a piece of good news for Angie, the Mashal. But I can't say out now. After that, we went to Harbour Front for dinner. We ate in Yoshinoya, $3.95 for a set meal. How cheap. Well, next, we went to IMM, without Aloysius. We walk and walk and walk, until we are tired. We took the shuttle bus back to Boon Lay MRT, we went to Pasak Malam, at the open field besides the station. Danny bought a sunglass for only $10! Hahas... Soon, we went back home by separated ways.

10.12 PM

A tired day after all

2005-09-07T06:28:00.000-07:00

Wake up quite late this morning, cos very tired... Hahas... After I had my light breakfast, I started doing my homework... At about 3.00 PM, Aloysius and I went to Arena CC, for golf lesson. On our way there, we "longpang" Danny... After we reach, there are no bay for us. I mean no 3 straight bays together.. So we separated. Well, I bought 200 balls at first, after playing, we went to Burger King for Air-Conditioning... Then, I played another 100 balls, when it is about 7.45 PM. After that, I came back home. Edited the blog`s template. I've change the song to " Where Did I Go Right" by Hilary Duff. It is one of my favourite song. Alright, haven got my dinner yet, the sense of tiredness is now within me...

9.36 PM

DBS Junior Golf Challenge

2005-09-06T17:03:00.000-07:00

Played Warren for two days... Today and the day before... Weather is damn freaking hot... No mood to play at all! Yesterday, I played with Timothy Low, a SSS student... He played quite well, 73. Unlike me, 90. But I'm proud to say that I out-drive him... Today, teeing off in the 2nd flight, 8.03 am. Front nine did quite well, 40, 5 over.. But I blow 4 holes during the back 9... Double bogeys all the way.. But manage to play 8 pars altogether. Finished with 87.. The winner for this event is... ( Don't feel like mentioning his name... A SSS student. ) He played 1 under... Expected... Going out to orchard later... With Clan S.D.A.C... Cos my father got a function at Ngee An City.

Picture:
DBS Golf Challenge

5.03 PM

Xiu Ying, believe it or not...

2005-09-03T21:06:00.000-07:00

Haiz... My swing was cork up again... Ball goes every direction... Left, right, centre... Except the back... Tried my best to "rescue" my swing.. At last, I manage to get back my swing as before... Hahas... Received a sms from Woon Hsiung while playing, asking me out for a basketball game tmr, with Shu Yu they all... Damn... Long time nv play basketball le... Don't know still rmb the skills or not... By the way, they are my primary school friends... And Woon Hsiung is once my disciple, for basketball... But now, I think he can play better than me... As now I'm focusing on golf... Hahas... At the same time, I'm chatting with Xiu Ying, asking me some sensitive question... Alamak... Don't know how to answer her question... ( Xiu Ying, believe it or not... )

9.06 PM

My com is bursting soon!

2005-09-03T11:44:00.000-07:00

Received a sms from Danny which asking me to play golf in the afternoon as Saturday is usually our practice day. Had an heavy breakfast just now. Hahas... Now sorting the songs in my drive, which makes my computer bursting soon. At the same time, uploading some songs requested by Danny into my phone and sending them to him later.

11.44 AM